Becoming Aware of God

Twice now I have become fully aware of God’s many mercies upon my life. He accepts me.

The fact that He even permits me into His presence after I have defiled and blasphemed against:

1.       Him

2.       His temple

3.       His word…

I have redirected my blessings to satisfy self and flesh.

I never understood the mind-set of true believers. They always seemed so hurt and genuinely moved by sin, ignorance, blasphemy and other evils of the world. Then I saw the true blessings of God and I began to understand Your word. I started to see how our sins hurt You, Father! I realised that sin not only destroyed us and our relationship with You, but they hurt You so much because Your children, Your creation, are totally ignorant of Your existence and Your true love for them. We don’t even believe in the sacrifice that You have made. We live in the world that You have made for us! Yet we can’t acknowledge Your existence. You have given so much. You have sacrificed so much. But what have we given to You? How do we repay You for all that You do? How do we acknowledge and reverence You? Wait…do we even acknowledge or reverence You? Our excuse is that the world is imperfect; we are imperfect, yes. Through sin we are…but through Christ, God sees perfection in us.

We do not understand that Your mercies departed from us. If we were truly deserted by You Lord, WE WOULD BE NOTHING. My imagination [as excitable as it gets and as blessed as I am with it] cannot even begin to fathom how empty, pointless, irrelevant, deserted our lives would be. Words cannot express that image.

                                WE WOULD BE NOTHING

                                WE WOULD BE DESERT LAND

                                WE WOULD BE HELL PERSONIFIED…

Because the absence of God is Hell.

All that I am is You Lord

                                I just truly understood what that means. You increase my knowledge and thirst for You and I appreciate You for that Lord.