I think people find me rather peculiar, understandably. I have the uncanny ability to be everyone's friend and yet be painfully, unbearably anti-social. I don't even know how possible that is. How can I be sociable and anti-social all at once? How can I know at least 50% of the people at a 'party' and still be the one sitting quietly in a corner somewhere? More importantly how can I be content doing it?
I think I'll always be like this. As much as I often kick myself for being a recluse, I think I value my ability to sit, listen and observe even in the most unusual situations. I've been this way since I was a child and I have that Forever 6 thing going on (in case you don't know what that is, it's my theory that a part of me will always be 6 years old).
So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'll always be the kid with imaginary friends, sitting alone in a corner and making her own fun out of thin air...I guess the silver lining is I know how to socialise if I need to.
Well there are both sides to everything, as you put it. Although it can be a bad thing, the plus side is that when you're REALLY a friend, you're one of those friends that people just don't want to let go of. Ever. Believe me, I would know :)
ReplyDeleteah China u have a way of making all my eccentricities look normal :) thank u
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