You know the feeling you get, when you have resolved an issue, made a decision, a choice, a conclusion: the feeling of peace at last. I would really like to know why I am not feeling that right now. Maybe because choosing a path is only half the battle. Maybe it's knowing that now that I have made a choice I have to face up to it, live with it, see it through. Or more importantly, maybe it's the fear that every gambler feels because they know that there's a good chance that a risk wont pay off.
I want to say that I am 100% confident in my choice. I AM very happy with it though. I know it was the right step to take. I just hope that I can remember that when it matters. I keep telling myself, if its meant to be it will work out right and if it doesn't, then well, there's always home. I am more afraid now than I have ever been in my life and I hope that will be my motivation.
Now all I need to do is tell the people who matter; I just haven't figured out how...
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