I'm a MASSIVE hypochondriac

Yes. Its True. I am a huge hypochondriac...but I'm kinda not sure if I am at the same time. On one hand I am sure I have every psychological problem from bipolar disorder to SAD. In fact I think me calling myself a Hypochondriac when I am so obviously not is a sign that I am. Confusing, I know. However I can't possibly be because I don't stress about my physical health that much. OK so I occasionally diagnose my random thoughts and ultimate winter depression as something far worse than my pure self-indulgence. But that doesn't make a hypochondriac or a mentally unstable person right??

Ultimately I suppose I am just hyperbolic. Prime example: In my last year of primary school, our English teacher used to put poems on massive cards and stick them on the wall at the back of the class. In one of them the word exaggeration was used. None of us knew what it meant but he eventually told us. It described me perfectly. I have always been too [insert word of choice here :P] I am always at one end of the spectrum and I love it. And quite frankly I love the word exaggeration.

On a Musical Note....

You know when you get those messages on YouTube where people send you videos?? More times than not they are awful disastrous covers by some delusional person. But on some very rare occasions you're actually approached by sane and talented people...like today!

I got a message from a rap duo from the states known as Upper Echelon. Now rap isn't usually my thing because it has kinda moved away from being lyrical poetry, to being an obscene measure of how much everyone owns and the guns they use to make others give them what they don't have yet. However they reminded me of why my brothers hid in their rooms and listened to Tupac's mix tapes.

Even as I struggle for the words to write this randomness, I am replaying their songs over and over again on YT. It's been a long time since I listened to any rap song and felt goosebumps rather than disgust.

This is a link to their YT page:

http://www.youtube.com/user/UeHiphop1

They also have a Facebook page just search for Upper Echelon.

I implore you to listen I promise you'll find something to relate to.

You Know I Loves You.

Neglect

I have been awful! I have neglected my few but faithful, and for that I am truly sorry.

I wish I had a good excuse for you, I really do. But the fact of the matter is I have been in hiding recently. I have avoided friends and most of my family and that is simply because I am trying to avoid the many nagging problems in my mind.

I also I wish I could share my burdens with you...but I wouldn't even know where to start. And besides I am sure you all have your own burdens. Tell them to me! I need something to help me take my mind of ME! Please?? It is the way I survive.

Now I don't tend to share my inner most crazies with anyone beyond my unfortunate nearest and dearest. But you have found yourself amidst the 'privileged' today. If you ask me what I have spent my time doing recently I would have to say...falling out of love. Being in love is torture. It’s HIM calling, texting or randomly showing up in my peripheral vision and flushing my whole day down the toilet, and seemingly without knowing it! It’s turning an old duvet cover into some kind of dress or sleeping bag and re-writing an old Dean Martin song in my head until it's relevant and doesn’t make me a lesbian.

Ultimately, I think what I am trying to say is that I have neglected you because I have felt neglected...so don't hold it against me :)